Monday, November 06, 2017

BEGIN THE BEGIN

Every so often...so often!...I get a feeling of wanting to start from scratch, clear the decks, wipe the slate, begin again at a different beginning.

Usually it starts when I look around and decide that my home must be completely transformed. I must get rid of everything I no longer need, put my past artworks out of sight, give away old vinyl records, cds, books I won't read again etc. Apart from kitchen, bathroom and bedroom, turn the other two rooms into painting/building spaces - my upstairs studio is much too cramped, filled with STUFF which must immeditely be cleared.

What usually happens next in the radical transformation scenario is that reality, i.e. the colossal physical/mental energy required to achieve my goal, suddenly knocks me down, knocks me out and stands there laughing fiendishly while I crawl away, defeated.

The thing is: to start from the beginning, is it the mental space you need to clear rather than your physical space? Or is there no such thing as a new beginning?

3 comments:

Tom said...

In our case, it was something of each, material and psycho-spiritual. The one fed the other. And there is always the problem of throwing the baby out with the bath water. Of course, it was the house fire that started the ball rolling for us.

Catalyst said...

"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step."

"One day at a time."

A little progress each day will lead to greater progress later on, Natalie.

Good luck.

N. D'Arbeloff said...

Tom, yes that baby doesn't yell loudly enough when it's being thrown out!
I'm glad that the trauma of your house fire was healed by positive changes in your life and home-base. May it all continue to get better and better.

Bruce, that's always good advice and I try to follow it. Alas my energy ain't what it used to be - I could take on every DIY job without pausing for breath. But now..... H'mn.